What do you do when the sun dies off
and your whole world fades to black?
What if one day your world starts to break
and you realize there's no turning back?
What if you finally see the through the trees
and smell the salt air on the wind,
and then, somehow, you finally learn that
it was all just a game of pretend?
What do you do when the world seems to halt
and leaves all that you know broken down?
What, when all that you know and love
can no longer be seen around?
Do you travel the world with a heart of regrets,
do you live your whole life in the cold?
Do you pick up the pieces and try to move on,
and hold on to the thoughts
It pounds,
'thud, thud, thud,"
over and over;
the pulse of blood
in my head, and
hot drops roll
farther and farther,
as if my soul
is leaking out
through my eyes,
but I still won't
say my goodbyes.
Life and death and Russian Roulette
in all you do, you cast your bet
and when you're through, and if you lose,
there are no repeats, you pay your dues.
Two sides of a coin tossed up in the air:
will you land on life, or end in despair?
Or will you catch it before it lands
and announce to the world "its not the end"?
The choice is all yours, no one can help;
no one can change the cards you've been dealt.
You're all alone, but keep in mind
that lonely doesn't mean its time.
Loving, hating, running, fading,
wishing for someone to love.
Flying, screaming, crying, dying,
calling out to anyone.
Quietly the words are spoken,
No louder than the cooing dove.
Words of wanting, pain now spoken,
Spoken in the setting sun.
Sobbing, raving, painfully craving,
No one hears your pleading voice.
Hoping, praying, stalling, laying,
Dreading someone else's choice.
Toss you into some asylum;
Padded walls and cleaning fumes
Fill your nose until you're choking,
Smelling not like beauty blooms.
Alone you've broken, nothing left,
Nothing but a shell.
You remember nothing from the past
On which you can dwell.
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Long time since I've posted here haha. Ok. So, made it through college and have a job. Woo! Hopefully my post volume will go up now that I have more time. :) Not that anyone watches this. :p
Why is December being so weirdly hot?
Its been quite a while since I've been here hasn't it? Lets see, what's changed...
Well, I'm out of high school and well into college by now; I've finished the general classes and am starting on courses for a Computer Science major this fall. Also going to be taking Japanese, so I'm looking forward to that.
I don't really have much to say, I suppose I just wanted to get that bellyaching off of my front page. :p
Tonight was Senior night at the school football game, and band seniors were supposed to be announced at halftime, so we got kicked off and didn't get announced until after the game, when everyone had already left. On top of that, the weather was awful. And guess what? To top it aaaaall off someone was in a bad mood, turning the finally-turned-good mood I'd gotten in sour. The best description of how I feel now is physically tired, emotionally exhausted. Does anyone have a spare dark broom closet for me to curl up in? It might make me feel a little better.
Anyways, enough of my bellyaching. When they finally announced band seniors, Ms.